Post by callista on Jan 7, 2006 1:27:15 GMT -5
OK I an awful with names, hense most of my poems really aren't named at all. This one is a bit darker, I was feeling pretty down and out there when I wrote it - my ppoetry is my way of venting because I usually bottle things up so a lot of my stuff is dark and about things like this but that doesn't mean I do this type of thing, at one time but not anymore.
A darkening sky weaps for my soul
only the bells toll my mournful song
I held on tightly to all I knew
but nothing was enough and it all slipped though
no tears, no pain, it must all fall away
the darkness comes and I let it take me
you call out, though I can no longer hear
only the dirt can whisper in my ear
It covers my cold pale flesh as I lay in the ground
turning to ashes I fade away
you were my light and I let it go out
you told me to stay strong
though I couldn't hold on
you were my guiding light, always holding me up
telling me everything would be alright
I cried when I talked to you
you always made me feel things I never knew
even when I thought I had nothing left
you touched something deep within my cold heart
it hurt to push you away though you always pushed back
you never let me fall, you always held me
I cared so much for you that I tried to keep strong
I dried my tears and held you, praying you wouldn't leave
So far away yet always touching my soul
this last strand of hope was all I had
You kissed away all my fears and told me it'd be alright
I tried so hard and wanted you there
Though I made the choice as I kissed you goodbye
I told you I loved you and then slipped away
not wanting you to see as I slid the knife across my wrist
the blood poured quickly though I still felt the pain
silent tears fell from my eyes as I remembered your last words
"I love you, please hold on and never let go."
As the cold started to seep in you came back to the room
you came and held me, crying as I whisper I was sorry
you begged me to stay as you tried to call for help
we both knew it was too late, I was already falling away
you kissed me goodbye as the cold took it's hold
I lay in your arms as you wished I was still there
no matter what I did I loved you so much
I tried to hold on just for you but I couldn't keep trying
Everything in my heart was cold
no longer any hope in my life
now I lay in the ground, no breath escapes my lips
I remember all your love and wish to hold you one last time
in the papers it read "Our long lost friend"
though was I a friend? did anyone else try to stop me?
did you talk and ask me what was wrong?
every time I passed, you looked the other way
I’m sorry it had to end this way, I wish I could have changed it
for months I asked for help though no one seemed to notice
I was always depressed and talking about death, I guess that’s normal
I love you so much and wish I could've held on for you
but the pains to much and your weren't here, I didn’t know how to hold on anymore
my lights gone out and there’s nothing left
please don’t cry and don’t blame yourself
your kept me alive this long, I wish there was a different way out
sorry it has to end this way, I love you and goodbye
A darkening sky weaps for my soul
only the bells toll my mournful song
I held on tightly to all I knew
but nothing was enough and it all slipped though
no tears, no pain, it must all fall away
the darkness comes and I let it take me
you call out, though I can no longer hear
only the dirt can whisper in my ear
It covers my cold pale flesh as I lay in the ground
turning to ashes I fade away
you were my light and I let it go out
you told me to stay strong
though I couldn't hold on
you were my guiding light, always holding me up
telling me everything would be alright
I cried when I talked to you
you always made me feel things I never knew
even when I thought I had nothing left
you touched something deep within my cold heart
it hurt to push you away though you always pushed back
you never let me fall, you always held me
I cared so much for you that I tried to keep strong
I dried my tears and held you, praying you wouldn't leave
So far away yet always touching my soul
this last strand of hope was all I had
You kissed away all my fears and told me it'd be alright
I tried so hard and wanted you there
Though I made the choice as I kissed you goodbye
I told you I loved you and then slipped away
not wanting you to see as I slid the knife across my wrist
the blood poured quickly though I still felt the pain
silent tears fell from my eyes as I remembered your last words
"I love you, please hold on and never let go."
As the cold started to seep in you came back to the room
you came and held me, crying as I whisper I was sorry
you begged me to stay as you tried to call for help
we both knew it was too late, I was already falling away
you kissed me goodbye as the cold took it's hold
I lay in your arms as you wished I was still there
no matter what I did I loved you so much
I tried to hold on just for you but I couldn't keep trying
Everything in my heart was cold
no longer any hope in my life
now I lay in the ground, no breath escapes my lips
I remember all your love and wish to hold you one last time
in the papers it read "Our long lost friend"
though was I a friend? did anyone else try to stop me?
did you talk and ask me what was wrong?
every time I passed, you looked the other way
I’m sorry it had to end this way, I wish I could have changed it
for months I asked for help though no one seemed to notice
I was always depressed and talking about death, I guess that’s normal
I love you so much and wish I could've held on for you
but the pains to much and your weren't here, I didn’t know how to hold on anymore
my lights gone out and there’s nothing left
please don’t cry and don’t blame yourself
your kept me alive this long, I wish there was a different way out
sorry it has to end this way, I love you and goodbye