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Post by uozumi on Jan 6, 2005 20:10:48 GMT -5
I decided to put up the latest poem, but I have tons more, the character counter would just run out v.v
1-4-05
Perhaps it is time to say goodbye, Perhaps it is time to dim my eyes, For not much of a sparkle remains, And this pain withing my eyes, Threatens to tear me apart, I'm dying, Slowly but surely I am dying inside.
Perhaps this will reach the throne of deaf ears, Perhaps for once my selfishness has caught up with me, He wasn't wrong you know, I am two-faced and I deserve nothing, I'm an egomaniac and I need things I shouldn't have, Shouldn't want.
I like to think I'm better than myself and others, I like to pretend that I'm things I'm not, I'm surely insane, Look at all the I's in this, I'm so self-centered I want to vomit, But inside I hope that someone replies, Because I'm selfish and egocentric like that.
It's true what they say and despite the fact I don't want to be what they say, I am, All of this work gives me nothing, And I try to fight it, But they're right, As much as I wish they weren't, I'm what they say I am, Right down to the last bad thing.
So perhaps it's time to ride inot the sunset, Or away from it, Time to let my heart bleed like it wants, Time to cry, Time to do things that I keep from doing, Try to stop being immortal, I need to be struck down, I need to bleed, I need to leave this earth.
~ Uozumi
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Post by uozumi on Jan 8, 2005 0:33:21 GMT -5
1/8/05
Have you ever felt so powerless, You hold the fate of one person, One special person, In your hands so small, Their soul so fragile, That to them it means nothing.
So you sit with them, You smile for them, And in the wee hours of the night, You die with them, And they steal your soul, And you cry to sleep.
But they can't change, You shout and scream inside, But all they seem to do is want to die, You want to die, It's a never ending cycle, One of pain and helplessness.
So you say that you don't know what to do, Your other friends worry, And soon it's all a mess, You're trapped within these walls, You can't get out.
But you are ever-so-faithful, And you tough out it all, You try to keep your head above the water, You try not to drown in your tears, You try to dull their pain, You scream silently.
One day you know they will be gone, And when others see how you feel, They tell you that you are not insignifcant, That you are not alone, But you are, For you cannot save this one person.
1/8/05
So I die a little each time we are together, I try so hard to keep smiling, I try so hard to keep you from knowing, I hide it all away in hope for you, I want you to be free, I want you to be happy, I can't let you watch me crack.
It's so hard sometimes, I can't leave you be, So I sit here crying on the inside, Others asking me what is wrong, And I try to brush them away, I cannot tell them about you, It isn't my place.
You tell me things I wish I didn't know, You tell me things I wish I could mend, I just keep spiraling downward, You becoming a guide, As I slip and slide, Headed towards the bottom, The bottom of Earth.
1/8/05
What good is it being a prince, What do you gain from it, You vanquish all these dragons, You give so many people, So much hope, And you triumph before their eyes, But you cannot save one person.
You try to do so, You work as hard as you might, You fight against whatever demon they posses, But it's never enough, Your sword is too dull, Your valor too lack-luster, Your armor soft and flimsy.
You try though, For you are the prince, No one else can be that for you, Though you try to escape this fate, But you can't and you know it, You struggle against it all, But you can never be the princess.
How many damsels must you save, Before it all becomes a bitter end? How many lives must be spared, For this to not matter, For you to not care, To give up on the one life, That you cannot save?
There is nothing you can do, The hour-glass cannot be re-turned, The time that has slipped by was in vain, But you still try, You are the prince, You must do something, You cannot sit by.
So you scream and shout as it breaks, Your heart rips into your gut, You couldn't save but this one life, After all this time, After all your victories, You are nothing but broken promises and empty armor, A princess acting as the prince.
1/8/05
I want to die when you do, I want to take away this pain, Give it to myself, So you can live through, So that you can survive, When I'm gone, When I'm dead, Don't cry for me.
For I will die for you, I will lift you up so you might live, Though I know it would be in vain, For I know you too well, If I were to die you would follow, If I live perhaps I can stall you, Perhaps I can save you, But that is just a pipe dream.
I know that the end is drawing near, I feel it in my body, My soul cries out in silence, I watch as you slowly drift away, I can see the whiteness of your slip, Your death shroud, And I can do nothing, But stand here.
How can I be so helpless? Why can I not do what I wanted? What would it have taken, For you to stay here? For you not to go? For me to have saved you? Tell me what I should have done, Give me a direction I should have gone in.
TELL ME WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO! TELL ME WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY! I'm looking for the reason now, I'm looking for how I f**ked this up, I'm looking for a place to go, I'm searching for why this went wrong, Why you aren't here, Why I am crying.
WHY DID I CRY SO MUCH?! WHY DIDN'T I GET OUT?! What posessed me to keep going? Why couldn't I just leave you be, I knew this would be the end, I knew that this would happen, But I stayed, AND LOOK WHERE IT GOT ME!
WHERE DID IT GET ME?! DO YOU EVEN KNOW?! DO YOU EVEN CARE?! I doubt it, You never did, You even said so yourself, So now I sit here, Wish you were still alive.
Because I'm an idiot I guess, I wish you hadn't had gone, I wish I had been more powerful than this, I wish that my love for you was stronger, i wish that I was stronger, I wish I could move on, The nightmares would stop, And I would be free.
Oh how I want to be free of you, But I cling to you much too tight, I'm too stuck on you now, So when you go, I will just be here, And I will wait for you always, Because I promised that's what I would do, Even if you left me.
~ Uozumi
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Post by Enchant on Jan 8, 2005 18:52:03 GMT -5
Those are soo good, but I had no doubts. I noticed none were titled.....was this done on purpose or you didn't pay no mind.?.....They are very sad and emotional....I think you are a true poet.
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Post by uozumi on Jan 8, 2005 20:23:53 GMT -5
Those are soo good, but I had no doubts. I noticed none were titled.....was this done on purpose or you didn't pay no mind.?.....They are very sad and emotional....I think you are a true poet. I'm just lazy and I can't think of titles for anything, so I don't bother. Also they all flow together, so there's no time to title when the next one comes. And thank you. ~ Uozumi
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Post by padfootsbabe on Feb 11, 2005 4:54:51 GMT -5
Awwww...*Sniffle* Your sho good, Laura!!!
Mine suck..I should post them on here sometime..In my thing of course. LOL
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Post by fairyqueen on Feb 11, 2005 6:14:07 GMT -5
i'm so sorry i couldn't read all at one time but i love the first two...... you know it does have alot of i's in it but alot of t's too ;D ........ how do you guys write these stuff? where did you get all these talents from? i can't even write a paragraph of anything to make sense like that......*cries* the poems... are just... beautiful!!*cries*
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Post by uozumi on Feb 20, 2005 20:23:22 GMT -5
2-20-05
I hear you yelling and I just want to do something, I want to take both of you and stop this, Because I just sit there taking it, And you both keep going on and on, I hate this, I hate this so much that I want to scream, And when it gets to the breaking point, Suddenly we're all friends, No one's fighting, It's like it never happened.
Then I get out and about, You both demonize each other, I was at the root of both arguments today, You both dragged me in, You both tried to take me down, I don't understand eithe rof you, It makes me want to just scream, Or never come home again, Because someday thsi will escalate, Someday nothing will go right.
So maybe I just don't understand anything, Perhaps I'm on of the luckiest people in the world, But I go seeking for sollace, But get someone who seems so superficious, I go looking for sollace but just can't, I hate being so selfish, I hate being demonized, I hate it when they demonize each other, I want this all to end.
Some people might suggest to get a gun, Others just don't get it, Shooting people won't solve anything, Besides I don't think I could do that again, At least not someone I love, Even if you wonder if there is love, You wonder why you want to be home, You wonder why they're even together, Then it's all smiles and love.
It makes me wonder who's the superficious one, The person who promises and never comes through, Or you two, I hope that I'm not the one, Though I might be stuck in the middle, Though I might be so selfish as to seek for help, Yeah I harbor stupid feelings, I harbor things that leaves people pointing fingers, I harbor things that you just don't understand.
So I want to scream at you, I want to make you see how idiotic this all is, How you make me feel like an idiot, How you help me not at all, And I'm still that little kid sitting in the kitchen, I'm the little kid who learned not to cry, I'm still the little kid who dies inside, And it's getting to the point that I can't take it, I just want to get out but I can't, I'm too selfish.
2-20-05
Yeah I guess that everything just sucks, I guess that everything is hell, I guess that you don't give a nuts, And as things go farther and farther, As we grow up together, I just wnat to smash your head in, I want a gun.
Oh but it's not to shoot anyone, I just want to feel it in my hands, I just want to know I have it, But I won't shoot it, Because I'm not like you, I won't ever be like you, I mean it.
Though I will admit I knwo you carry one, It's getting to the point in which I should carry one too, But I just want to hold it, I don't want to shoot it, Because you need a better death than that, You deserve something more painful, Something less short.
Bah. 'Nuff of that. I'm going to do my homework.
~ Laura
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Post by Enchant on Feb 20, 2005 22:07:08 GMT -5
Wow Uozumi...you are truely a writer.....you come off very pissed, angry in these works....not having a good day are we? however there is a sadness embedded with them...it sux being caught between a rock and hard place, I feel for ya. *huggles*
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Post by uozumi on Feb 20, 2005 23:45:27 GMT -5
Thanks, Piffy. Yeah I'm having an angsty time of it.
~ Laura
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Post by uozumi on Feb 21, 2005 23:30:14 GMT -5
2-21-05
I'll love you forever, Even if we're both girls, No sexuality involved, I'll love you 'till the end of my days, And I'll cry for you at night.
I try to find the words, I try to talk you out of this, But no words come, Because I know your life sucks, And it hurts so much.
I feel so powerless, And perhaps this time I won't stop you, Because I just can't say what needs to be said, I can't bring myself to, And I feel bad because of it.
I will love you forever, Even if this is the last day you live, Even if this is the last day that we will speak, I will love you forever, Until eternity.
I remember talking to you the first time, i remember our arguments, I remember all the bad times, And I remember the good, You always tell me that you love me.
I love you so much that it hurts, I love you so much that I would do anything, But I'm powerless and scared for myself, I'm so selfish that I cry, I need to be stronger for you.
No wonder girls hit on me, To love a girl more than any boy I've known, Even if this isn't romatnic, I don't know... I just don't know anymore.
I can't bear to lose you, Every time you talk of leaving, Every time you talk about dying, I try to stay strong, But I don't know what to do.
You tell me that I'm the best person in the world, That I am a wonderful friend, That you love me so much, I love so much too, I want you to be happy.
Is that why I can't tell you that you can't leave? Is that why I try to say the things I do, Say what has kept you here, But they mean nothing now? I feel so lost.
I dream about you, Thinking of you multiple times everyday, Thinking of you more than I should, But I could never marry you, I don't love you in that way.
I feel so helpless, So powerless, I know I'll wake up tomorrow, I will wait for you, I wil love you forever.
~ Laura
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Post by Enchant on Feb 22, 2005 0:09:45 GMT -5
Awww Uozumi...that breaks my heart....to have a freindship like that to only disappate....all I can say is awwww. You have a power with your words...very nice poem.
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Post by uozumi on Feb 27, 2005 20:32:28 GMT -5
So angsty for one so young, I’ve got reason, I’ve got reason enough to fill pages, I could name names, Talk about red, blue, and purple, About stupidity.
So I must be one of the stupidest people in the world, On and on about how I have to be, They say it on the cover of a magazine, They tell me everyday on the news, I get ostracized by people, And all I did was vote.
Perhaps I should have kept it to myself, Like those in Hollywood too scared to speak, Too scared to divulge what they support, Just too damn scared, But I’m not scared, I guess that’s what makes me stupid.
And suddenly I’m not supposed to like Eminem, I’m supposed to like Tim McGraw, But I just can’t, Perhaps you can give away all your Metallica CDs, But I hold tightly onto my Coldplay, Though you say I shouldn’t.
So again I was told I am stupid, That I’m supposedly in the red, Red that is stupidity, But I don’t believe in red states or blue states, There’s no such thing, We are all a shade of purple in the end.
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Post by Enchant on Feb 27, 2005 21:28:14 GMT -5
Whoa...that was something..it almost had rythmic beat when I read it....I like how how you used it metphorically too.....very cool.
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Post by uozumi on Feb 27, 2005 21:40:59 GMT -5
Thanks, Piffy. It was for my class poem.
~ Laura
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